Where's My Salary?

You don't understand....
I did it for you....
for us!!

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Why do I have to care....
I mean, It's so easy to get hooked up these days....
Why I gave my heart to you the very first day I knew my responsiblity was.....
being your secret admirer....


Honestly, I never wanted to be one....
I hate love...
I don't encourage love....
Love sucks....

I said I loved you all because I don't want my brother to feel bad about...
me knowing her's...
and she not knowing mine....

Well, I don't know...
It was only a lie...
How did it end up like this....
It was only a lie....
It was only a lie, a white one!!!

Look,
My problem is...
Am I not good enough for you...
Come on, chill, I'm just a 15 year old kid who doesn't know how to play hula-hoop....
Why do you have to be so hard on me....

High expectations, me being "the one who can be handled by saying a few good words"....
Funny eh?
Well...
I'm through!!
Where's my salary....
All I did for nothing....
Stupid investments....

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I don't like you...
Really,I did it because I wanted to cover up my white lie...
But everytime I saw you...
There was this...resistance and lack-of-chemistry thingy....

Then, there was this matchmaker( I know it's not your fault, thanks anyway)
Who made us hold hands...
Being a truthful kid, no, I don't feel anything good....
I did not feel exotic....
I did not feel sexually aroused....
I did not feel pleasurable....

But what I feel is....
Me having to take care and love you because you know I love you and I'm supposed to?

Shit....
Luckily we're not officially hooked up....
And again, chill....
For Jesus Christ's sake, if you don't think we have a future....
Hurt me!!
Tell me!!
Scream at me!!
I don't mind....

What I hate more about you is taking me for granted....
No free meals girl....
Why don't you tell me in the first place....
So I don't have to worry every friggin' month for your menstruation pain....
So I don't have to memorize useless things like your birthday and Valentine's day.....
(There's supposed to be Christmas but I'm a Christian)
So I don't have to freak out when you appear....
So I don't have to go through any sleepless nights thinking about your birthday present....
So I don't have to worry so much about your thoughts....

Hell, and again, tell me!!!

Why don't you tell me that you're not paying me....
Shit....

Enjoy huh?
Watching me shout in pain and agony....
Like you tend to care....
Watching me run all over the town just to make you happy...
Even the street dogs recognize me....
Watching me being stupid....
But you never loved me....

Hell, is your heart made of aluminium....??
I thought, you're perfectly normal....

I know, I'm supposed to be in the abnormal golongan....
BUT AT LEAST MY HEART IS MADE OF MEAT!!

I don't know what's your problem....
Just because I don't have "that"....??
Or because you want to save face?
Or is it you think I'm not good enough....

I don't mind you're not accepting me....
But YOU SHOULD TELL ME EARLIER DAMN IT.....
Why do you have to make me think this is working out....
Just because you want some presents....
You can just have the money!!!


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I am inconsolable right now....
I wish I didn't lie at the start now....
Stupid me...Hahaz....


From this day on, I'm not gonna see you or have anything to do with you....
I do not wish to talk to you...
Nor see you...
Nor hate you....
Nor love you....


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I've learnt my lesson....
Precious those who precious you than precious those who will never precious you....



In the end, I'm just gonna say....
You think I'm not up for the job....
But I think I am better than you!!!
You're the one who doesn't deserve me!!!









Three cheers for being grown-up...!!!
Now who wants another round?