First Time

Okay....
This is the first time I pat tor ( Has a boyfriend/girlfriend)
You know...
It was weird...
I was going to confess to you then you came to confess to me....
Finally, I can kick that b**** I once loved outta my life....
I finally get things straight...
I am worth more than that b**** and deserve to be loved like I love someone....
Then you came into my life...
Thanks....
You save me from a relationship no different than a flower that never blooms...

Umm...
Like I said, this IS the first time....
So I don't really know what to do or what should I do........
hold hands, hug, kiss??
Skip Skip Skip....
I don't feel like doing all those...
Especially we will never get to meet alone....
Totally chaperoned by the unknowing crowd and team mates....

I'm quite sorry....
I promised you I'd be the most romantic mate as soon as you're in my sight...
It turns out that I only talked to you twice in 5 hours....
Oblivious of you, excited with my basketball....
I don't want to let you feel desserted...
I don't want my coach down either....
So let just say I don't want to flirt with you in the public...
Because I don't want the other team mates to know of our relationship....
Trust me, it will totally ruin our team work....
Besides, I wanted a time-out whenever there's basketball practice....
I want myself to focus on the ball instead of you....


But, the major contributing factor is that I'm not yet ready to exchange our friendship with love...
Sometimes I feel shy and digusted at the thought of flirting with you....
Really....
Yeah, I DO like you(not yet love) but I am not rushing this relationship....
Because I am not rushing to get married....
Who knows, maybe we'll move on a bit slower or break up(which I don't really look into)...

I know you were at tuition when we had a training yesterday...
But I saw something interesting at the court: A loving couple...
They were actually flirting, but to us, they were having sex....
The girl was caressing the guy's thighs,buttocks and the guy's tying her hair...
The guy's hugging her waist and he almost kissed her (Why almost, not kissing? I don't like to see people kiss)
My friend and I almost took up a slingshot to shoot them....
It looks....shameful and disgusting....
They were so young but they acted as if they have sex every night...
You could see from there because they were so "deeply in love" , touching here touching there...(So much for the touch n go card)
Sometimes I pray for these kinda couples...
Because they either end up pregnant or break up....
It's never a happy ending...

It is impossible for us to get pregnant...
But I want you to know that I like you very much...
And gambateh in your exam...;)