Did she say cheese?

Log of 1st and 3rd of November



Oh no!!

A good explaination is required to elimate everyone's curiousity about my Saturday absence!!

God god god....

This is what it happened:



As a quite active member of the cadets...

Not seeing me attending activities means it's snowing in Sahara Desert...

Well, Sahara Desert actually snowed in the end....



Everyone kept asking me why I didn't go...

Why? They asked me...

They asked me why...

For a time in my life I left so pressured and .....tight man~!!!

I wish they could act as if I was invisible!!

It feels kinda good to know that many people actually did mind your existance...

But god, not this time....



I know I was to be questioned by assistant chairperson of the organization....

When I went to see her, I wasn't afraid ( I'm supposed to be)

I was like...Smiling all the time!!!

I don't know...I was some sorta attracted to her...

I was talking to her happily, smiling, joking and was not pressured at all...

And she was smiling too, she didn't scold me for being such a sleepbag(Which is not the reason)...

After talking to her, I feel so enlightened...So alive...So over-the-moon!!!

Seriously, I was some sorta fell in love with her at that very moment...

I could feel my heartbeat, my face was burning hot, and I feel damn happy for the rest of the day!!!

I mean...Nah, it can't be...She's a girl for heaven's sake...

She's my assistant chairperson for God's sake...

I've already got a girl for Hell's sake....?!?!

I dunno...I dunno....

I know I am a homo but please...

Not a second girl!!!

She's like so perfect (Except for her personality which I don't really admire)...

I can imagining myself smile like that everyday I talk to her...

......
Hell what was I talking about!?!?

It would cost her heart...

I could break it!!

And assistant chairperson may not take me as well!!!

GOD GOD GOD....

Anyways, I gotta learn how to resist hot ladies and lock my heart (The last thing I would do before I die) to her, only her!!



Being a L is already difficult....

What more to earn another's heart??