Lovesick...

Hut-Chiuuuuu.......
Obviously, I'm being attacked by love virus....
I'm missing that temple so much that I can hardly feel that I'm happy alone...
I'm very confused over our relationship....
Sometimes it cares for me and sometimes it thinks replying me is a stupid thing....
This is a very special temple that only talks at night....
I wonder why....

I doubt the line between us....
It cares about me yets says it doesn't love me...
I'm so lost...lost....
I keep falling in and out of love with it...
It's like I love it now and I don't love it the next second....
When I know more about it and it turns out that I love it now...
My heart was broken and healed....
The process repeats in a short period of time...
Which will result in me malfunctioning....

I love it very much...
But I no more have the courage to be any nearer to it....
After experiencing a fatal damage to my heart...
It's like you push someone you love out of the road thus being went over by a vehicle....
And that person doesn't feel any more grateful and leaves you lying in the hospital ward....
Healing yourself and your heart...
You risked your life for that person....
In return, that person risked the goodness in him to hurt you....
I know it sounds funny but you might cry when you're the one being run over by a car for a no-good fellow....

Ahem, continue...
I don't dare to flirt, say "I love you" or bother to make it happy....
Six more days until it's birthday....
Last year, I sent a present to it...
But it doesn't seemed very happy....
So I decided not to give any more gifts to it....
It doesn't make any difference...
........

Wait, it does!!
Making me more oblivious to it....

I'm so inconsolable right now....
Stuck in the middle of love, friendship and hate........
GOD SAVE ME!!!